The ROOM within.

ROOM.
A phenomenal movie filled to the brim with acting brilliance. A movie that that leaves you reeling with questions and explorations. A movie that demands for a re-evaluation of one self. A movie that looks at breaking the 'norms' and 'naturals' of the world. Well, it definitely was not CAROL, because it is not a disappointment. I am not a movie critic, and the number of stars that I put next to a movie's name lies solely in its ability to shift my value system, and make my world view shudder. and ROOM did that.

You see, we are all in a 'room';  one that encompasses all our learning and all our understanding of the world. It is within this metaphorical four walls that we lock ourselves within and make sense of the the world that exist within. As our mind explores, our body must move. We must see what is beyond that door, that yard, that border, that ocean. The mind of a human being is explorative and adventurous. Yet, we insist on a society that contains it within an invisible room. Then, of course is the questions of - when exploring, are we going beyond the room or simply expanding the room? 

Many people I know of simply widen the length and breadth of the room with the tools of knowledge, never truly carving a route out of the comfort of the associations they create between new and old information. Like a group of Singaporeans, travelling to India, but always sticking to one another exploring a foreign land, only through what they have already understood. Never breaking free from the herd and wandering through alleys, to meet with discomfort or danger.  However, on the flip side, one needs to also understand the room, exploring every nook and cranny. Because, this metaphorical room, with all the furnishings in it, represents our individual selves. The exquisitely detailed carvings on the wooden four post king-seized bed crafted by your mind may be a projection of your love for grandeur. That plain looking chair may be speaking of your disdain to be asked to sit in one place. Personally, I feel like I am yanked out of this room in my mind, and asked to create a whole new room. But in reality, it is the same room, shaken by shifts in the foundations of my world. It is disorganized and appears unfamiliar, whilst still maintaining a distinct identity that insists that it is truly my room.

It is time I started exploring this room for my own. I have explored outside of it, expanded it, and used the projections of others to define its place and properties. Alas, the time has come for me to look within, and for that I need to insist on developing my core power, and my reflecting on my actions. I need to explore how to create a bio-environment that intertwines my mind, body, and soul, so I can increase my self-awareness.

There has been conflict within me, between deciding to attend events to meet new people or to just reflect on my own. I will be open to opportunities to meet people, but my aim at the moment is to explore my inner world; to explore every bit of the room that I have created through learning and experiences.

Unlike in the ROOM, where they broke free from the room where they were held as hostages for years, I will return to my 'room'  and explore everything. Of course, always with the door open.