Pay my respects to grace and virtue
Send my condolences to good
Give my regards to soul and romance,
They always did the best they could
And so long to devotion
You taught me everything I know
Wave goodbye
Wish me well..
You've gotta let me go
- The Killers (Human)
Lately, I've been overwhelmed with the feeling of helplessness. Not so much of what is going on in my head but more of all that has been happening around the world. Just today I heard of earthquakes in China and Bangladesh. Rising death tolls and pain around the world. Everything is changing.
The Geographical plates, the human paradigms , the Faith people have. everything is changing.
The person I once was is no more and it's sad. I miss her. But it must be done cause the person I'm becoming is better.
I feel so unworthy of all the good that I have been so blessed to receive. I've been taking and taking for so long and not giving anything. I cannot really recognise this feeling or know what I am meant to do but I think I'm experiencing what we might all refer to as soul-searching.
Who do I benefit with my existence? If I believe that we are all connected, what am I doing that can help another? What is the purpose of me on this Earth? Questioning my spirituality. Facing my hypocrisy. Clubbing, dancing, drinking and all these don't really do it for me anymore.
I don't know if you understand what i'm saying. I don't understand if even I have any idea what's happening.
But I hope Time and Life will give me some idea soon.
Or maybe you will?
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